demotivated.

That's what this post is turning out to be....
planned to post in detail each events but I guess I won't be able to do it now...

I know its still early for me to feel down right now, but I just can't elp the thoughts of.... nvm...

On the bright side, my finals only last for 2 freaking days!!
Which means I'll be a walking corpse rushing 14 topics into my pea-sized brain, but also mean that I'll be able to cosplay this year, WHEE!!~

Hope the cosplay won't turn out to be a huge disaster... >_<
oh! I don't think I'll be posting up on past events that took place as.... well..... many things happened.

Like when I got my own car on 24th oct,
attended a workshop on ethics,
did crazy things with my friends in NYNY Deli,
baby-ed my brand new Canon to bits,
snuck out to MV and got myself Anna Sui (Yes baby~!),
took pre-grad photos with my dearest classmates,
literally swallowed 3 topics within 4 hours' time
for mid term,
on that faithful black friday a motorbike ramped into my car door,
tried to catch a glimpse at the supposed meteor shower but failed,
went out with friends to times square....

I guess that's about what took place in the whole month.

And now some random photos to prove just how awesome my new canon baby is :


Meet THE Canon

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I think I'm gonna hate Thursdays now.
Wait, I take that back. I hate Thursdays... for the next 5 weeks to come.

Sorry to start off the post with such a negative remark, but seriously, I'm just not myself right now, and feeling very emo due to all the things that are going on at the moment, and am seriously feeling the stress now.

Life so far has been great... how I wish I could actually say that. I mean, its not bad, its just that things are really packed and hectic, far more hectic than it was.

Yes, its that time again, the time when the fog thickens and blurs my vision once more.
I am so sick of trying to find my way in this labyrinth over and over again. Might as well getting a GPS for my life. But then again, what does the GPS stand for in the context of my life?



So anyways, until I get those oh-so-depressing; f-ed up thoughts of mine on how I'm living my life like a poor self-confusing bastard, I'll just do a quick update on what happened during the time when I went MIA from the virtual fairy-land.
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I guess I'm gonna start off the updates with photos of my artworks for the past months:
done as birthday presents, and for practice purposes.

For Sally's bday:




This is the 'WIP' drawing, the finished drawing is WAYYYY cooler and WAAAYYYY complicated with all the hair floating around.

The cat went to Sally, while the girl went to Saru~

Saru's:


before

after
My proudest work at the moment.
Not only its a 13-minute drawing, it was also an experiment with various medias including eye shadow.

Rhu's:


Just a simple birthday card with a personal touch to it.
Took me hours to do this cause I'm so out of touch.

And her birthday cake which I bake.

Practice purposes:

Attempt with copic markers #1. Quite satisfied with the outcome.


A quick doodle on colored-paper.


during process

Finished work.


The only drawing I did when I was back at home-sweet-home.
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One of the motivator to go back home, my handsome 老夫子.

For the one week that I was back home, which was also super unexpected and hyper last minute kind of decision, I was still recuperating from the after effects of an event known to many as final examinations.
By the final 2 papers, I was already beyond any average homo sapien, feeling like a literal ghoul.
So anyways, I spent about 3-4 days of my 1-week stay in my comfort zone at home.
No virtual holy-land-visiting.
No movies/TV staring.
No yum cha sessions.
Just me and the 4 walls of the room.
Which was exactly what I needed.

Then after getting better, had the chance to meet up with my friends, who'd always remind me of how life should really go on despite what a pain it is.

And then I went on to tidy some of my old junks and found some precious memories buried under the pile of garbage. Yes I'm a full time garbage collector.



It is with much pain and regret, that I have to say, these no longer exist in my collection of garbage. These are my treasure of all time, and I had to throw them away since my dad wanted me to clear up some of my old stuffs. I had a hold of these books when I started taking Piano lessons, yes, they are piano books.
Not only were they part of the reason why I got attracted to art (come on, who can resist the cute drawings on the cover?), they also reminded me of my mom, who always accompanied me during my piano lessons.


This is a CNY card which I think I received from a dear friend of mine during Form 1/2, and it made me LOL-ed the whole day. I mms-ed her the photo and she too had forgotten all about what she had written, or about the card for that matter.


I think this was Form 2/3? A time when I was SOO hooked onto anime and even spread the bug to my friends at school, and ended up sacrificing an exercise book to write up a review on animes which we like during that time.
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I also would like to say that, I love sunsets.
Yes, sunrises are pretty too, but I love sunsets more.
And to me, sunsets back at home are the best.



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I guess that's all for now. I shall go and clear my head a little and just, rest more.
Gosh, its only been 2 weeks and I'm already starting to miss home once again.
I'm just sad-case, am I not...


The same place, same scene. Just a different feeling.

In which...

StreamyX decided it was time to go on its PMS mood until the 10th of Sept.

Seriously, without the holy-virtual-merry land, I'd SO FREAKING DIE! On a literal note.

Also, am currently working hard on my studies- considering that finals' just, what, 2 weeks away? (;_;) *bawls my eye balls out*
And also working hard on a special something for a special someone.

Oh wait, its not just ONE thing, still working on the multiple stuffs to give to the special someone, which I doubt would be any better than the ones I received of.
*efforts efforts!!*

But, yeah, that's pretty much about it.
Other than the fact that StreamyX is on a superbly PMS-mood, and that I'm running out of time and brain-space to memo the notes, and also my recent-kicks include Joanna Wong, that's pretty much a wrap to this random post.

Enjoy your day, people!~
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累

真的很累。

越来越不懂得，自己到底是为了什么走下这条路。

到底是为了谁，为了什么原因，而奋斗到如今。

完完全全的迷失方向。

以前还可以说，忍多几年就没事了。现在完全已经是越来越没有心情。

好想就这样躺着躺着，消灭。

真的觉得很累很累，泪也快要哭干了，真的好辛苦。

但是这种感受又能向谁说？

说得了吗？完全就说不出来嘛。。。

完全不懂得该怎么去真真的打从心地对待明天。

现在我需要的是时间，而时间是我所没能拥有的宝物。

真的很恨我自己没拥有勇气去恨恨的拒绝。

如果当初我不顾虑后果，做出自私的决定，现在的我会比较好过吗？

不好意思，原本想写关于近期所发生的事情，但是大半都是不愉快的事。
我会尽快振作起来的。我只是需要一点时间。。。

*cough*

突然真想看海呢。。。

Speed update.2

6 big-fat cups of coffee in one day.

Seriously. I'll die from coffee-overdose one day...

and from all the stress studying is giving me.

I hate myself.

I hate myself for not being able to do things not in the last minute manner.

I hate myself for procrastinating so much to the point that I just sit there worrying and taking no actions.

I hate myself for not being disciplined enough to stay focus on priorities.

I hate myself for the pea-sized brain that I have which cannot possibly handle the large capacities of data required to be stored in it for examinations and also assignments.

And I also hate myself for not being able to generate inspiration and ideas rather than waiting for it to come to me.

But one thing's for sure.

I definitely love how I can rant here despite the pile of endless work ahead.

Yes. I love myself. Really.

Hyper LONG POST ahead!

Wasn't able to update on how interesting my life had been so far due to the never ending torture at Uni that is known as mid terms.

So here's one hell of a long-friggin' post that is accompanied by photos too!
And they sure took up plenty of processing time.

Here's a snap at what my July is like so far...

1st July:

Attended a talk in conjunction with Utar's CWW week which was held in the PJ branch and took a jab of Gardasil and also went for a mini health check up. Saw Uncle Chicken there who was in charge of the....diabetic test booth? xD!


Surprisingly, there were many students who participated in the talk and even guys asked questions! But yea, its not like its embarrassing or a taboo to ask stuffs about girls, guys need to know them too!


Goodies courtesy of MSD.


The plaster given after the jab, which I pasted at the back of my phone xD!

3rd July:

Already had plans to meet up with my dearest Rhu Rhu for Transformers initially but wasn't able to make it due to Organizational Development mid term =((

Anyhow, met up for dinner with her instead with the usual gang.
And so, we went to...

Full House in Ara Damansara, the place is called 牛车水 in mandarin.


One of the paintings on the wall







The receipt. What else >_>

And then we went upstairs to explore the interior... which was very fairy-tale-like.
Of course not forgetting...


Our ability to fully utilize the set to camwhore xD!

But seriously, the second floor setting is ideal for photography sessions. Wait til I get my hands on my dream DSLR... TT_TT

And then, we headed to the Curve for yum cha session and also to see Mr. Max.
And seriously, what he said is true... Everytime not like we go there to meet him THAT often to begin with we go there to see him we ended up at places like this...


Meet The Apartment,
a place with nice ambiance and a costly *for students like me* chill-out spot.


Meet the bottle of "puny-sized" Sprite who had traveled all the way from Thailand to be priced at RM7.90.

The love that screams "I'll-burn-a-huge-hole-in-your-purse" choc pudding.

The "We-don't-really-like-it" Elton Mass... Or so I think its called that...>_>lll

And then Mr Max came, and since the place was really out of the question *for students like us* to dine in, we decided to drop by at another location for makan, making it our 3rd makan spot within hours.


Group photo taken before leaving The Apartment.

The 3rd makan spot was...



Original Penang Kayu Nasi Kandar, Damansara.

And that ended the whole 7-hour makan-outing, consisting mostly of roads, cars and traffic.

6th July:

Finished up the second paper for mid term with tears and plenty of blood-lost, which was otherwise known as Financial Statement Analysis.

And came the highlight of the day/night.
Birthday(s) celebration.


Island Red Cafe in Mahkota Cheras, with the visible classmates standing by the railings or some who were fooling around at the back on the second floor.



Took some actually plenty of photos while waiting for the other lead role to arrive.


A drink that goes by the name, Fall in love. xD!

My orders- Fried Seafood Tofu and Mocha Ice blended.

And FINALLY the other lead role came, and the party began!


Chocolate Mousse Cake from King's specially for the July born-s, Kent and Carmen~

They posted together

Made a wish together

Blew out the candles together


Cut the cake together

AWWWWwwWWwwWwwwwwww~~~ xD!!

And of course, not letting go of the chance to tease the duo...


And also, asking them to write birthday wishes to each other...



... looked like they were signing the marriage agreement LOL!!!



And these two photos looked like they had just signed a business agreement for partnership or something xD!
But we all still wanna think of it as an agreement of marriage. XD!!!

And of course, not forgetting to take a group photo to finish it off.


And compare this photo with the one taken in...


2007

2008

Pretty huge difference hur.

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And lastly, I am foreseeing myself unable to complete the entry for L'oreal's Hydrafresh competition... I totally suck lllorz
I already missed out on 2 competitions where I drafted the drawings but never manage to complete it, and now the lack of inspiration to participate in this competition.
This Totally S-U-C-K.

p/s: This has been a f-ing 2-hour-pain-in-the-@$$-long-post that took place right after I arrived home from the 'yum cha/bday party celebration'. So consider this post FRESH off the oven.